So I have been struggling for a long time with my faith. I think a lot of it started when Hubby and I moved to Virginia in the fall of 2011. We were coming from a strong church to looking for a new one. We started attending one church near the university I was working at. I was somewhat surprised by this church. I guess many would have called them a liberal church. I just shrugged my shoulders because, hey, if you don't want to or feel the need to dress up for church, that's fine, casual is just as good, but I guess I was a bit surprised when the preacher was wearing a university t-shirt and jeans to give his sermon. It just seemed odd to me, then his preaching seems a bit off. I couldn't put my finger on it until the last lesson. The end of his lesson really. When he wrapped it up saying "We are glad you are here, but you don't need to be here if you don't want to be." Wait, what? What about assembling together as Christians? (Hebrews 10:25) Are we not to learn together, strengthen, comfort, support one another by coming together in a common area? Sadly, this was when we decided to look into another church in the area.
We started on a good foot with this church too. It was obviously much more conservative than the previous church. Everybody wore their very best. Hubby and I stood out in our simple attire. Again, though, there was something off with this church. They seemed very judgmental. The articles in the bulletin described not wearing their very best to church as not loving God, and people who studied science was a heathen (I work in biology). We often found ourselves tilting our heads during the sermons thinking is that right? Hubby was often so lost of words when he came out of those the lesson just seemed...wrong. Finally, the preacher had a very obviously wrong lesson. He preached on wither or not Jesus knew things before they were to happen. His lessons conclusion was, no, Jesus did not. Wow! Red flags everywhere! How many times in the gospel did Jesus preach about his having to leave his disciples, he knew he was going to die, he knew who it was who would betray him of his disciples even when he chose them. Usually when he asked questions about who did what or what a person meant by something it was a teaching tool. The woman who believed that Jesus could heal her just by touching the hem of his robe was asked to reveal herself, not as a question of "who touched me" but as "So me woman your true faith." Confessing Jesus' power is a big part of this faith, we have to let our light shine and let it be known to others that we believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.
Anyways, that leads me to where I am today. We moved again in the fall of 2012. Thankfully, God blessed us with many things when we got here. One of those things has been a very balanced church family. Being here in this location and interacting with people on-line really makes me want to make sure I know what I am doing. But that also makes me see things that are popular views as being wrong. I want to share when things religiously disappoint me. But I know the moment I do people will start tearing my face off just because I think it is immoral. I'm not the type to hate or condemn people for things. People can change when they want to, but I do not believe that God is an all loving God and I can do whatever I like and still be accepted by Him when the judgement day comes. God has rules, God is jealous, God is vengeful. He will separate us into Heaven and Hell. But we must make the choice of if we want to follow the rules he set for us.