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This is what I do?
Dec. 7th, 2012 01:37 pmI feel so incompetent at my job a lot of the time. I'm not really up on all the proper terms that are suppose to be used, so jargon talk goes over my head, and I have a hard time recalling how everything works. I feel like half the time people come for me for help I end up having them correcting me on things, because I don't have all the points together, or I have to send them to someone else because I don't know how to help.
I often wonder how in the world I got into this field? Science was never my strong area. I find it all interesting, but I don't really understand most of it. Even worse now, my worst area even in scince was biochemistry, and somehow I got a job being the labs biochemist! Really?! How did I do that?
I just try to keep myself busy, even though I know some don't think that I am and I'm just hanging out for work :(. Today the undergrad said that to me. I was kind of offended because I had been digging through articles trying to find stuff to read to help me understand what I'm working on and how others are using it, I had been fighting with math so I could do a test run of a sample once another worker got my device, that I have been waiting months for, set up and working. I do stuff a lot of the time, I just spend a lot of it online at my desk rather than getting to spend all day at the bench. I would love to be at my bench most of the day, but my work doesn't allow that. There are spaces where I just can't really work on anything. Somethings spin for 20 minutes and there isn't must else to do in that time. Somethings I have to wait hours on, and usually I can't do my work until that step is done. Though I think I may have a cycle figured out so that I can keep working even during this long spell.
I don't know. I just worry about my work, and I do work most of the time. It just doesn't look like it when I'm restricted by not having the correct materials or waiting on steps to pass.
I often wonder how in the world I got into this field? Science was never my strong area. I find it all interesting, but I don't really understand most of it. Even worse now, my worst area even in scince was biochemistry, and somehow I got a job being the labs biochemist! Really?! How did I do that?
I just try to keep myself busy, even though I know some don't think that I am and I'm just hanging out for work :(. Today the undergrad said that to me. I was kind of offended because I had been digging through articles trying to find stuff to read to help me understand what I'm working on and how others are using it, I had been fighting with math so I could do a test run of a sample once another worker got my device, that I have been waiting months for, set up and working. I do stuff a lot of the time, I just spend a lot of it online at my desk rather than getting to spend all day at the bench. I would love to be at my bench most of the day, but my work doesn't allow that. There are spaces where I just can't really work on anything. Somethings spin for 20 minutes and there isn't must else to do in that time. Somethings I have to wait hours on, and usually I can't do my work until that step is done. Though I think I may have a cycle figured out so that I can keep working even during this long spell.
I don't know. I just worry about my work, and I do work most of the time. It just doesn't look like it when I'm restricted by not having the correct materials or waiting on steps to pass.
