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I'm tired of all this. One text doesn't go through and the day is messed up. I had wanted to let B rest. And my ride didn't get the text that I needed a ride. So I had to wake him up for a ride. He was so tied, he stayed up late playing a game he bought yesterday. He is so stressed out with my bein sick. He can't do the drives to take me to work and I don't blame him in a round trip it is an hour. I would hate that too. But his stress adds to my own stress and it is crazy

We spoke about the idea of just leaving Oregon and going back home. Doing a reset since we both don't like where we are at the moment. His mom has a large home that she easily could share with us. Brady would be happy to be back near friends and family and he could easily find a job he find more enjoyable and on his schedule, he is a night worker which he can't seem to find here. I've debated several things myself. Since we can't have pets I have been wanting to look into grooming or such so I could interact with other people's pets. I've also debated about going back to school for FWS since I really enjoyed working with fish when I was in school. My motherinlaw has also suggested starting a yarn shop. I know that would be hard but it would be fun too. To order yarns, maybe dye some of my own, run the shop and knit. I really like that idea right now. But all of this we wonder is just us wanting to get out of a bad situation that has been made 10 times worse by my illness. Maybe if it goes away or the doctors find what it is we would be okay