Distractions

[sammyphoenix]

I'm highly distracted today. I just can't focus on my work. It doesn't help that nothing is working and I don't see the reason why. And I'm just full of fumbles today. Adding the wrong amount of stuff, dropping stuff and spilling the contents over my bench. Yeah. Just not wanting to work.

I also have my mind on life stuff and recreational stuff more. I'm trying not to think about the job interview too much since it's not until next Thursday even though I do need to get with a friend and go over some questions and work on my answers. Like the diversity question. I need to look into that question. I don't really understand what it means. How am I diverse? How do I get along with diverse people. I don't know. I need to find the list of questions I kept from last time, in case they are the same. I'm pretty sure the diversity question is standard now.

I'm keeping myself occupied with fanfiction reading mostly the past few days. I've gotten sucked into Ultharkitty's Vortex/First Aid fics. I'm enjoying seeing Vortex be violent crazing then turning around and being gentle when it comes to First Aid. I like that. Not sure why. I also find it a bit amusing because I once had a conversation with B about which Transformer we would be. He knows much more about the characters as he somewhat grew up with them. They were actually his older brother's time frame, but they recorded most of the shows so he could watch them when he was sick, which was quite often. He said I was most like First Aid, shy, kind, compassion for everything even inanimate objects... So, I don't know I find it interesting to see people write the character. Trying to figure out if its me or not, since I haven't made the time to find episodes with him in it the check that way.

I've also been having the urge to draw a lot. I did a sketch yesterday of Vortex and Onslaught. They are sitting together on a bench, maybe a couch, I haven't decided yet, but I was outside enjoying the sun so I think my inspiration came from that. Vortex is stretched out, relaxing his arms over whatever they are sitting on, face up towards the sky, relining back. Onslaught doesn't look as comfortable. He has a data pad in one hand and he is hunched over holding his head with the other hand, trying to focus on what he is reading. I picture Vortex saying stupid thoughts like "Ons, you ever think about not killing autobots" and Ons just telling him to shut up. I don't know. I got a few favorites on Twitter when I posted it, and B really liked it when I sent it to him. He's my number one fan. He thinks everything I do is a master piece and I will get to where I want to be if I keep drawing. I'm trying. I posted the image to twitter to get it transferred over to my tablet easier. I saved the image and have it uploaded into a drawing app I bought. I like it. I can free hand draw, which is really messy because I don't have a steady grasp on the stylus, or I can use tools to make straight lines, boxes, or circles. It also lets me add layers which I haven't had in some of my past apps. Last night I worked on lining and coloring Vortex. I think he's coming a long nicely. I wanted to work on Ons today at lunch, but I got distracted with reading. Tonight I hope to really work on him. I need some G1 references. I have a comic reference, but it seems different than what I remember from the comic.

I've also been trying to work on writing some fiction myself. Trying to continue the Thundercracker/Ultra Magnus. I think I got another chapter out last night, though the events will come much later in the time line of things. At least it is written. I should try to get out some of my ideas for the second chapter. I'm just having a hard time starting. I have some story ideas of where I want the story to go, but the characters aren't there yet and they aren't a pairing I feel I can just drop into a relationship together. Unless it was just a one shot and for fun.