Not really and update update

[sammyphoenix]

I've been so stressed out recently. I really need to sit down and just write about it, but I'm in such a meh mood I can't even.

Took two days off work last week giving me a four day weekend and I really wish it hadn't ended. I hate my work place so much. I come from a background where people know how to take care of their own areas and shared areas within a lab and everything is nice and neat. This lab...it's a disaster area and I've been trying to find ways to not care that shared areas are a mess, cleaning only the things that I need myself. But I can only do so much when the mess comes into my personal working space. Because of the way I was trained I keep my area very neat, tidy, and all my materials are stocked. The past few weeks I got a new bench partner. Fine, I don't mind, until he started taking supplies off my bench and not returning them. Then I have mornings when I come in iceboxes, which were left over night for the ice to melt, are left on my bench and water leaking everywhere. I just can't work cleaning up other peoples messes on my bench. So I'm in the process of looking for a new job.

In a similar vain, B has been having some issues with the area and it is causing him to be increasingly cranky. I don't blame him, it makes me cranky too, but it makes him really home sick also. Another reason to be looking for work, and closer to home. The West Coast just isn't for us. There is so much entitlement and yet no one wants to do the work for what they think they are entitled to. And people just don't know how to take care of themselves.

Mom has also contacted me again. I'm trying with contact, but with every email I begin doubting that anything will stick. Sadly, I'm just calling her out in a way on the truth that she is twisting. It will probably be the best way for me to keep sane will contacting her. She always pushes for phone calls, but I still don't want to, but that's just more of I just don't want to talk to her other than my phone phobia issue. As much as I want to have contact with certain people of my family, mom is just too much drama.