I can't do anything right

I can't stand my job. I finally broke down and cried over it. I woke up this morning remembering that I had not stored my proteins properly and just left them sitting out at room temperature. That's not the best for proteins, but I'm still running my experiment today hoping it will be okay. In the mean time I'm going to purify some of my frozen cells and have fresh back up protein that I will hopefully remember to store properly

I'm just so frustrated with everything here. I keep doing what I can but I always forget to do something where the process I do takes so much time, and I'm trying to get so much done at once. It doesn't help that I know my boss is frustrated with how I make these careless mistakes. Now even when I'm sure I haven't made a mistake I either have made a mistake or he is calling me out on a mistake I'm sure I didn't do. I think that is how I forgot my proteins yesterday. I was frustrated at my boss for saying I hadn't sent him all of my data when I am 98% sure that all the slides I sent him yesterday I had sent to him in previous emails. So know he thinks I have data that he hasn't seen before. I don't have data. I have proteins that won't stay in solution. Which is why I'm stuck spinning my wheels again.

Also today is B and my's 6th wedding anniversary. We had a nice date yesterday when I have up on the day when my protein was acting up and my boss had sent his email that discused what I just wrote about. We had a nice lunch at red lobster and went to see frozen. It was an okay movie, very pretty, but an eh Disney film. I have been so busy with work that I hadn't gotten him a gift or a card and I thought we had agreed on no gifts, but apparently he worded it differently so he got me a gift, I guess he also said it was a Christmas gift that he wanted to give me sooner. But I now have a sewing machine. It's a singer simple. I have no idea what all it has with it but it looks like it is simple enough to figure out with the very little experience I have with sewing machines. Now I need to figure out what I need to buy for it to actually get doing. I also need to find some beginner patterns to learn how to work the thing. I'm excited to use it, though I don't know when that will be at this rate.

I'm sitting a long at work at the moment. Still trying not to cry while I try to get stuff done. I'm so mad at myself I have been pushing B away since I'm such a crummy person. He left me alone to work. I sent an apology text after I cooled some, but I haven't heard back from him. He hasn't been sleeping well and was getting tired this morning. I hope he is just in the car resting and nothing bad has happened.